10 Day Countdown

I have my counter set to countdown til May26. It will be a day of a wide range of emotions for me. On that day my oldest daughter must report for duty in Kuwait. She will be there until late November;leaving a husband and 2 sons back home in Illinois. The adoption of the 3 boys will be final Monday 05/18/2009. My heart breaks for her having to leave them. And of course I am afraid for her,but I am also very proud of her. She went in to the USAF 10 days after graduating from high school in 1992 and this is her first really dangerous assignment. She has made her mother very proud.

On the same day in the early evening my baby will graduate from high school. She will be leaving for college in August. She has also made her mother proud. She is in the top 15% of her class,has been active in school clubs,church,and held a job since late 10th grade.

I am also very proud of our 5 other kids and if I listed their accomplishments I would be here half the night. But these 2 are the bookends of my "career as a mother" . I start a new phase in my life I will always be a mother and be there if they need me;but after 35 years I don't have to be as serious or as responsible. The thought is exhilarating and scary at the same time.

So I guess I need a whole box of kleenex for May 26th.

Facing Motality

I have not blogged in almost a month. It seems like I have come face to face with my mortality and I am trying to deal with it. My Mom's health has started to decline it is hard to witness plus I share some of the diseases she suffers from. She has not taken care of herself and I am not doing a good job of taking care of myself either. In late 2006;early 2007 I faced a terrible emotional upheaval I tell myself I have put it behind me, but I never was good at taking care of myself ; always taking care of others. And now I seem to have given up on myself. I have reached the highest weight of my life 210. That's bad for a 5'4" woman who has diabetes and high blood pressure.
I know I need to lose weight and to exercise but I just seem to be stuck in park.
I thought I was on the right track last year when I opened my etsy shop I was finally doing something I wanted to do and my creativity was starting to show up.
But now I don't seem able to create anything. It's like I have lost my zest for life. Everyone keeps pulling at me to do for them and I am tired I expected to be able to do things for myself at this stage of my life but instead I am stuck in park with my insides overheating.
I know this probably makes no sense I am just rambling but I am trying to get back on track and quit wasting my life. Life is short and I really do want to enjoy the remainder of mine. I don't want to be like mom depressed, bitter, and negative.
Hopefully I will figure a way to make it out of this dark place.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings hopefully the next update will be more upbeat and not so far apart.

Welcome to the World Tyler

My God grandson Tyler was born April 8th 2009 at 5:45pm in Greenville SC . He weighs 7lbs.and 4oz. Mother and son are doing fine can't wait to hold him. Congratulations Karie and Josh.

I Finished a Project---YES!

It seems like I have a dozen projects going on. I will be glad when tax season is over so I will have more time.

This is a baby blanket I made for my daughter's best friend her baby is due April 13. Randy says its the best blanket I have made so far. Maybe I should take orders instead of making them random for the shop. Knowing it is for someone makes it special.

20 Years

March 21 our 20th anniversary. It's so hard to believe. It seems like just yesterday we were getting married.

We had 5 kids between us that day,had jobs we liked and a plan. But God has his on plans 2 years later we have 7 kids the last 2 only 45 weeks apart.

Life has taken a lot of twists and turns since then. The baby was 18 last Sunday;the oldest will be 35 in July.

The kids are grown,the jobs are totally different , the plan is different but the love is stronger than ever.

It has been an adventure and I am looking forward to the next 20. We are going to be the kids I never had a chance to be. So if I times I sound like I have lost it really, I have found it.

Randall, I Love You, Always and Forever.

Friday Ramblings!!

I am off work and looking forward to the weekend. The weather is suppose to be beautiful in the 70's. not like the snowy weather last weekend.
I am hoping to get a lot done.
below is a fill in list I picked up at Curlyfrysc blog site she has a link to go to the original blog I am still figuring out how to do links. Sometimes the computer can be challenging for us old ladies.
Everyone remember TURN THE CLOCKS UP 1 HOUR BEFORE BED SATURDAY
its that time again!



1. Letting a lady go in front of me in line was my last random act of kindness. 2. Another place would be lonely without Randy.3. Tread lightly in matters of the heart.4. Coffee, tea or Pepsi. 5. We are walk separate paths.6. Our love reminds me that there is a safe haven from the troubles of the world. 7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to sleeping,tomorrow my plans include shopping,cleaning crafting, and Sunday, I want to watch the race!!

Snow,snow,snow go away!

My power is back on . We got hit by a winter storm Sunday dumping 6 inches of snow we had thunder and lightning with it the
news cast called it thunder snow it was weird. And being in the south we lost power. But this time I was prepared I have a kerosene heater that will heat up to 1000 square feet and plenty of candles. But no cable or computer and I can't read or sew by candle light. I really am amazed at what people could do a 100 years ago.
But I am taking the day off the roads are in bad shape and I drive a Kia Rio not exactly a heavy car. I hope no one wanted their taxes done today.
Everyone have a great week I am going to finish up a baby quilt I am making for a baby shower later this month and hopefully get a few items in my etsy shop.